Paranoia

​​I’d like to ignore all the warning signs

So, I’ll turn my shower on and off four times

And ask Google why I’m paranoid

Maybe something bad will happen

Because I’m scared of things I’ve never minded

The internet says it’s the comorbidity

And I probably need to get more sleep

But my meds already knock me out

And I’m worried change wouldn’t help

I’ll follow my mind’s confusing rules

And pretend the buzz in my body is cool

I just need to keep my knife by my bed

And act like nothing’s wrong in my head